" Well, we must wait for the future to show, "
said Mr. Bankes, coming in from the terrace.
" It's almost too dark to see," said Andrew,
coming up from the beach.
" One can hardly tell which is the sea and
which is the land, " said Prue.
" Do we leave that light burning? " said Lily
as they took their coats off indoors.
" No," said Prue, " not if everyone's in. "
66 Andrew," she called back, " just put out the
light in the hall."
One by one the lamps were all extinguished,
except that Mr. Carmichael, who liked to lie awake a little reading Virgil, kept his candle burning rather longer than the rest.
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So with the lamps all put out, the moon sunk,
and a thin rain drumming on the roof a down- pouring of immense darkness began. Nothing, it
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seemed, could survive the flood, the profusion of darkness which, creeping in at keyholes and crevices, stole round window blinds, came into bedrooms, swallowed up here a jug and basin,
there a bowl of red and yellow dahlias, there the sharp edges and firm bulk of a chest of drawers.
Not only was furniture confounded; there was
scarcely anything left of body or mind by which
one could say " This is he " or " This is she."
Sometimes a hand was raised as if to clutch
something or ward off something, or somebody
groaned, or somebody laughed aloud as if sharing
ajoke with nothingness.
Nothing stirred in the drawing-room or in the
dining-room or on the staircase. Only through
the rusty hinges and swollen sea-moistened woodwork certain airs, detached from the body of the
wind (the house was ramshackle after all) crept round corners and ventured indoors. Almost one
might imagine them, as they entered the drawingroom, questioning and wondering, toying with the
flap of hanging wall-paper, asking, would it hang
much longer, when would it fall? Then smoothly
brushing the walls, they passed on musingly as if
asking the red and yellow roses on the wall-paper whether they would fade, and questioning (gently,
for there was time at their disposal) the torn letters
in the wastepaper basket, the flowers, the books,
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all of which were now open to them and asking,
Were they allies? Werethey enemies? How long
would they endure?
So some random light directing them from
some uncovered star, or wandering ship, or the
Lighthouse even, with its pale footfall upon stair
and mat, the little airs mounted the staircase and
nosed round bedroom doors. But here surely, they must cease. Whatever else may perish and disappear what lies here is steadfast. Here one might
say to those sliding lights, those fumbling airs, that
breathe and bend over the bed itself, here you can
neither touch nor destroy. Upon which, wearily,
ghostlily, as if they had feather-light fingers and
the light persistency of feathers, they would look,
once, on the shut eyes and the loosely clasping
fingers, and fold their garments wearily and disappear. And so, nosing, rubbing, they went to
the window on the staircase, to the servants'
bedrooms, to the boxes in the attics ; descending,
blanched the apples on the dining-room table,
fumbled the petals of roses, tried the picture on
the easel, brushed the mat and blew a little sand
along the floor. At length, desisting, all ceased
together, gathered together, all sighed together ;
all together gave off an aimless gust of lamentation
to which some door in the kitchen replied ; swung
wide; admitted nothing; and slammed to.