A moth

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Translation
Ghost girl how damaged do I have to be?
Ghost girl, how broken do I need to be?
That's a tease not a literal speech
That's a joke, not serious words.
You do know I'm your only cockroach
You know I'm your only cockroach.
Oh my dear micka
Oh my dear Mika,
How and, I really despise hiding your name
I really hate hiding your name.
Dear Mika
Dear Mika,
I have my antenna caught underneath a crevice
My antenna is stuck under a crack.
An last time you promised to be the death of my murder
Last time, you promised to end my suffering.
An put a boot on my arch, so I pop like gunfire and leave the floor colored hell and my skull but dung lying lifeless.
You said you'd step on me, so I'd burst and leave a mess.
But I have no care
But I don't care.
I know reality keeps peace for the loved while I am tossed to unending moral despair, undeserving to die by your hand, so assigned to die within the sole of your foot.
I know reality is kind to the loved, while I am left in endless despair, not worthy to die by your hand, so destined to die under your foot.
Abrasively dragging my corpse on the stone
Dragging my body harshly on the ground,
Tear by tear each piece of me leaves me like a salesman declined a deal on wall Street.
Piece by piece, I fall apart like a failed deal on Wall Street.
But moth I am devout to you
But I am devoted to you, moth.
The moment I entered this room brimmed with dust big enough to fill rooms for days and has couches that are stained with various drips and substances from unknown origin
When I entered this dusty room, filled with stains from unknown things,
Your footwear is the perfect example rather buy a core for the statement I'm all of place but not even within it while parrots tweet the note of a horror film
Your shoes are a perfect example of my misplaced existence, while parrots sing horror film notes.
Your the shadow of loves darkest corner
You are the shadow in love's darkest corner.
Your the truth of da Vinci's mona Lisa
You are the truth of da Vinci's Mona Lisa,
The texture of purple behind starry skies
The purple texture behind starry skies,
With hair of a cultic flame
With hair like a cultic flame,
An a fruity tongue that drips melon
And a fruity tongue that drips melon,
That sweats purified spring water that has me obsessed with taste
Sweating pure spring water that I crave,
With eyes of a Greek goddess of pleasure
With eyes like a Greek goddess of pleasure.
I am your devout
I am devoted to you.
I long to set an altar to your name
I want to create an altar for you,
With your heavenly face penned to the windows
With your heavenly face on the windows,
Inked into the glass internally snatched into a broken clock systematically but a part of time
Etched into the glass, trapped in a broken clock, yet part of time.
You are an itch that pain can't get rid
You are an itch that pain can't remove,
A phantom that I long to be haunted by within the night
A ghost I want to haunt me at night,
A soul of portrait that watches in silence in day
A silent portrait watching by day.
I look up to your arrival as saviour
I await your arrival as a savior,
Even if your not always as cold as bodies of frozen ice
Even if you're not always as cold as ice,
An come to me as little as chance
And come to me rarely,
An ring the fire for me to cut open my chest
And ignite the fire for me to cut open my chest,
Hold the breath with my hand and feed you the only remain of my humanity
Hold my breath and give you my last humanity.
Pulse-pulses while it vomits blood by the second
My heart beats while it bleeds.
Queen am I your Paramount or should I kneel?
Queen, am I your main focus, or should I kneel?
Or is my strawberry tart too bland for your liking as this blackness consumes to the last sight?
Or is my offering too bland for you as darkness consumes?
Your voice more gentle
Your voice is gentler
Than a childish world
Than a child's world,
An more complex than a moving velvet shadow
And more complex than a moving shadow.
It's coke an a shiver to my soul
It's a shock to my soul.
When I said I'll hold my breath
When I said I'd hold my breath,
I meant I'll squeeze my lung
I meant I'd squeeze my lungs
An pull out my heart alive
And pull out my heart alive,
Traumatized by the attack and fibers snipping from my chest
Traumatized by the attack, fibers tearing from my chest,
With thoughts pleading to not carry on doing
With thoughts begging to stop.
I know even so it ends in your arms
I know it ends in your arms,
I'll likely never make it to your tongue
But I'll likely never reach your tongue.
Whenever your new face creeps with flaws
Whenever your new face shows flaws,
An colors with imperfections
And colors with imperfections,
An your brush and mascara pity you, ironically
And your makeup pities you, ironically,
Words of Sylvia Plath are an episode of mockfulsanity
Sylvia Plath's words are a mockery of sanity.
All the paint on every blemish and pimple
All the paint on every blemish and pimple,
Judged by the mirror
Judged by the mirror,
You blame the innocent glass for anxiety
You blame the glass for anxiety,
But I believe it's who you who's peeling of your face with nails and dips them to carve bone and flesh off
But I believe it's you peeling your face with nails, carving bone and flesh.
I wish, I do sincerely wish as if god would take away my calm heart and made them your thoughts so you will mo longer get enraged when anxious and be with peace on your own
I wish, I sincerely wish, as if God would take my calm heart and make them your thoughts, so you won't get angry when anxious and find peace alone.
Regardless I have heard you happy, seen you alive, you already have heart and I long to find a reason for you to use it
Regardless, I've heard you happy, seen you alive, you already have a heart, and I long to find a reason for you to use it.
Even though I count you as a moth
Even though I see you as a moth,
Metaphor descriptions of a ghost alive
Metaphorically a living ghost,
I'm the simplest reason
I'm the simplest reason.
I want you to be heaven's tits
I want you to be heaven's gift,
Am give up the delusion of this worth
And give up the illusion of worth.
I have truth but I am not making use of it
I have truth but don't use it.
I'll never be your saviour
I'll never be your savior.
I am a cockroach
I am a cockroach.
I cannot save a soul
I cannot save a soul.
 

Explanation

This poem is a deeply introspective and metaphorical exploration of unrequited love and self-identity. The speaker expresses a sense of devotion and longing towards a figure named Mika, who is depicted as both an ethereal and unattainable presence. The imagery of insects like moths and cockroaches symbolizes the speaker's feelings of insignificance and self-deprecation. The poem uses vivid and sometimes grotesque imagery to convey the emotional turmoil and despair experienced by the speaker. The references to famous artworks and historical figures, such as da Vinci's Mona Lisa and Greek goddesses, elevate the object of affection to an almost divine status, further emphasizing the speaker's feelings of inadequacy. The poem also touches on themes of existential despair, as the speaker grapples with their own worth and the futility of their devotion. Despite the dark and melancholic tone, there is a sense of yearning for connection and understanding, as the speaker wishes for the object of their affection to find peace and happiness.

Word Dictionary15

WordIn EnglishPlain (English)Pron.
motha type of insectan insect attracted to light, often used metaphoricallymawth
cockroacha type of insectan insect often associated with dirt and survivalkok-roach
crevicea small cracka narrow opening or crackkreh-vis
despairhopelessnessa state of no hopedih-spair
devoutdeeply devotedshowing deep religious feeling or commitmentdih-vowt
phantomghosta ghostly figurefan-tuhm
saviourrescuerone who saves from dangersay-vyer
paramountmost importantof greatest importancepair-uh-mount
traumatizeddeeply shockedemotionally disturbedtraw-muh-tized
mockfulsanitymocking sanitya play on words suggesting mockery of sanitymok-ful-san-i-tee
anxietyworrya feeling of worry or uneaseang-zai-uh-tee
carvecutto cut into a shapekahrv
metaphorsymbola figure of speech comparing two unlike thingsmet-uh-for
delusionfalse beliefa belief that is not truedih-loo-zhuhn
soulspiritthe spiritual part of a personsohl

Poet & Context

Poet
EraContemporary

The poet of this piece is unknown. The poem appears to be a contemporary work, possibly influenced by confessional poetry styles.


WhenUnknown
WhyThe poem seems to explore themes of unrequited love, self-deprecation, and existential despair. It uses vivid imagery and metaphor to convey a sense of longing and emotional turmoil.
FormFree verse

Themes & More

Unrequited LoveSelf-IdentityExistential Despair
Metaphor: The use of insects like moths and cockroaches to symbolize feelings of insignificance.Imagery: Vivid descriptions of grotesque and ethereal scenes to convey emotional turmoil.Allusion: References to da Vinci's Mona Lisa and Greek goddesses to elevate the object of affection.Personification: Giving human traits to abstract concepts like despair and anxiety.Symbolism: Use of insects and art to symbolize deeper emotional states.