Stones in my tummy

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Original Poetry
Translation
Stones in my tummy
Stones in my tummy
It’s technically a 2 week wait referralyou say as I’m driving down the hill
It's a two-week wait referral, you say as I drive down the hill
Two Week Wait - words like stones in my tummy
Two-week wait - words feel like stones in my tummy
Then you’re gone, as was the plan - stick to the plan
Then you're gone, as planned - stick to the plan
Hey, I’m back tomorrow - I have a biopsy at 8am
Hey, I'm back tomorrow - I have a biopsy at 8 am
Not the plan, stones in my tummy
Not the plan, stones in my tummy
It’s Cancer
It's cancer
You squeeze my hand very tight, your lovely hand
You squeeze my hand tightly, your lovely hand
And then it’s waiting - for a scan, a result, a date, a blood test
And then it's waiting - for a scan, a result, a date, a blood test
Not like waiting for Christmas, a bus, a happy meal, a letter
Not like waiting for Christmas, a bus, a happy meal, or a letter
Waiting with stones in my tummy - your tummy
Waiting with stones in my tummy - your tummy
Maybe I can try to squeeze it out of you? Too much, too tight
Maybe I can try to squeeze it out of you? Too much, too tight
It needs to be the robot’s job
It needs to be the robot's job
Try and stick to the plan - what was the plan?
Try to stick to the plan - what was the plan?
How can you be up in the air with stones in your tummy?
How can you be up in the air with stones in your tummy?
You told me once - ‘I’m not going anywhere
You told me once - I'm not going anywhere
And the crossword puzzle said Miracle
And the crossword puzzle said miracle
I’m going to say a prayer to whoever might listen, about you and these stones in my tummy
I'm going to say a prayer to whoever might listen, about you and these stones in my tummy
 

Explanation

In 'Stones in my tummy,' the poet explores the emotional landscape of waiting for medical news, capturing the anxiety and uncertainty that accompanies such experiences. The opening line, 'Stones in my tummy,' serves as a metaphor for the heavy burden of fear and worry, suggesting that the speaker feels physically affected by the emotional turmoil. The phrase 'Two Week Wait' further emphasizes this sense of dread, as it encapsulates the agonizing anticipation of waiting for a diagnosis.

As the poem unfolds, the speaker recounts a conversation about a medical referral, highlighting the dissonance between the clinical language of healthcare and the personal impact it has on their life. The line 'Then you’re gone, as was the plan - stick to the plan' reflects the fragility of plans in the face of illness, while the subsequent mention of a biopsy introduces a jarring reality that disrupts any semblance of normalcy.

The emotional arc of the poem shifts from hope to despair, particularly when the diagnosis of cancer is revealed. The speaker's hand is squeezed tightly, a gesture of support that contrasts with the overwhelming fear of the unknown. The waiting becomes a central theme, described as 'waiting for a scan, a result, a date, a blood test,' which starkly contrasts with more joyful anticipations like 'waiting for Christmas.' This juxtaposition deepens the sense of dread that permeates the poem.

Craft-wise, the poet employs free verse to mirror the chaotic and unpredictable nature of the speaker's emotions. The repetition of 'stones in my tummy' serves as a refrain, reinforcing the weight of anxiety throughout the poem. The closing lines, where the speaker expresses a desire to pray for the person they care about, encapsulate a longing for hope amidst despair, ultimately highlighting the human need for connection and support in times of crisis. This poem resonates with anyone who has faced uncertainty in health, making it a poignant reflection on love, fear, and resilience.

Word Dictionary97

WordIn EnglishPlain (English)Pron.
Stonesچٹانیںhard pieces of rockstones
inمیںinside or withinin
myمیراbelonging to memy
tummyپیٹstomachtummy
It’sیہ ہےit isIt's
technicallyفنی طور پرin a technical sensetechnically
aایکonea
2دوthe number twodo
weekہفتہseven dayshafta
waitانتظارto stay in place until something happenswait
referralحوالہa recommendation to see a specialistreferral
youتمthe person being addressedyou
sayکہناto express in wordssay
asکی طرحin the same wayas
I’mمیں ہوںI amI'm
drivingچلا رہا ہوںoperating a vehicledriving
downنیچےtoward a lower placedown
theوہused to specify somethingthe
hillپہاڑیa small mountainhill
Thenپھرat that timeThen
you’reتم ہوyou areyou're
goneچلے گئےnot present anymoregone
wasتھاto exist in the pastwas
planمنصوبہa detailed proposal for doing somethingplan
stickچپکناto adhere to somethingstick
toکے لئےindicating direction or purposeto
Heyہیلوa casual greetingHey
backواپسreturning to a previous placeback
tomorrowکلthe day after todaytomorrow
Iمیںthe speakerI
haveہےto possesshave
biopsyبایپسیa medical test involving tissue removalbaiopsy
atپرindicating a specific time or placeat
8amصبح 8 بجےthe time eight in the morningsubah 8 baje
Notنہیںexpressing negationNot
stonesچٹانیںhard pieces of rockstones
Cancerکینسرa serious illness caused by uncontrolled cell growthkainsar
Youتمthe person being addressedYou
squeezeدباناto press tightlysqueeze
handہاتھthe end part of a person's armhand
veryبہتto a high degreevery
tightسختfirmly heldtight
yourتمہاراbelonging to youyour
lovelyخوبصورتbeautiful, pleasantlovely
Andاورused to connect words or phrasesAnd
thenپھرat that timethen
it’sیہ ہےit isit's
waitingانتظار کرناthe act of staying in one place until something happenswaiting
forکے لئےindicating purpose or reasonfor
scanسکینa medical imaging testscan
resultنتیجہthe outcome of a testresult
dateتاریخa specific daydate
bloodخونthe red liquid in the bodyblood
testٹیسٹa medical examinationtest
likeکی طرحsimilar tolike
Christmasکرسمسa holiday celebrated on December 25Christmas
busبسa large vehicle for transporting peoplebus
happyخوشfeeling joy or pleasurehappy
mealکھاناfood that is eatenmeal
letterخطa written messageletter
Waitingانتظار کرناthe act of staying in one place until something happensWaiting
withکے ساتھtogether withwith
MaybeشایدpossiblyMaybe
canکر سکتا ہوںto be able tocan
tryکوشش کرناto attempttry
itیہreferring to something previously mentionedit
outباہرto the outsideout
ofکاindicating origin or separationof
TooبہتexcessivelyToo
muchزیادہa large amountmuch
Itیہreferring to something previously mentionedIt
needsضرورت ہےrequiresneeds
beہوناto existbe
robot’sروبوٹ کاbelonging to the robotrobot's
jobکامa task or dutyjob
Tryکوشش کروmake an effortTry
andاورused to connect words or phrasesand
whatکیاwhich thingwhat
Howکیسےin what mannerHow
upاوپرat a higher positionup
airہواthe invisible mixture of gases around usair
toldبتایاto informtold
meمجھےto meme
onceایک بارone timeonce
notنہیںexpressing negationnot
goingجا رہا ہوںto move from one place to anothergoing
anywhereکہیں بھیin any placeanywhere
crosswordکروسل ورڈa word puzzlecrossword
puzzleپزلa game or problem to solvepuzzle
saidکہاto express in wordssaid
Miracleمعجزہan extraordinary eventmojiza
prayerدعاءa request to a deityprayer
whoeverجو بھیany person whowhoever
mightشایدpossiblymight
listenسنناto pay attention to soundlisten
aboutکے بارے میںconcerningabout
theseیہreferring to specific things nearbythese

Poet & Context

Poet
EraContemporary

The poet of 'Stones in my tummy' remains unidentified, but the poem reflects contemporary themes of anxiety, illness, and emotional turmoil, often expressed in modern free verse.


WhenRecent years, likely within the 21st century
WhyThe poem captures the emotional weight of waiting for medical results and the anxiety surrounding illness, reflecting personal and universal experiences of fear and hope.
FormFree verse

Themes & More

anxietyillnesswaitingemotional turmoil
metaphor: 'stones in my tummy' symbolizes emotional burden and anxietyrepetition: the phrase 'stones in my tummy' emphasizes the weight of worryjuxtaposition: contrasting waiting for medical results with joyful anticipations