کہاں کسی کی حمایت میں مارا جاؤں گا

رانا سعید دوشیUrdu16 lines1 public analyses
Original Poetry
Translation
کہاں کسی کی حمایت میں مارا جاؤں گا
Where will I be killed in support of someone?
میں کم شناس مروت ميں مارا جاؤں گا
I will be killed for not understanding kindness.
میں مارا جاؤں گا پہلے کسی فسانے میں
I will be killed first in a story,
پھر اس کے بعد حقیقت میں مارا جاؤں گا
Then afterwards I will be killed in reality.
مجھے بتایا ہوا ہے مری چھٹی حس نے
My sixth sense has told me,
میں اپنے عہدِ خلافت میں مارا جاؤں گا
I will be killed in my caliphate.
مرا یہ خون مرے دشمنوں کے سر ہوگا
My blood will be on the heads of my enemies,
میں دوستوں کی حراست ميں مارا جاؤں گا
I will be killed while in the custody of my friends.
یہاں کمان اٹھانا مری ضرورت ہے
Here, raising the weapon is necessary for me,
وگرنہ میں بھی شرافت میں مارا جاؤں گا
Otherwise, I too will be killed in respect.
میں چپ رہا تو مجھے مار دے گا میرا ضمیر
If I stay silent, my conscience will kill me,
گواہی دی تو عدالت میں مارا جاؤں گا
If I testify, I will be killed in court.
فراغ میرے لیے موت کی علامت ہے
Leisure is a sign of death for me,
میں اپنی پہلی فراغت میں مارا جاؤں گا
I will be killed in my first leisure.
نہیں مروں گا کسی جنگ میں یہ سوچ لیا
I have decided I will not die in any war,
میں اب کی بار محبت میں مارا جاؤں گا
This time I will be killed in love.
 

Explanation

In 'کہاں کسی کی حمایت میں مارا جاؤں گا', Rana Saeed Doshi explores the theme of mortality intertwined with human relationships and societal expectations. The opening line, "کہاں کسی کی حمایت میں مارا جاؤں گا" sets a tone of existential questioning, suggesting a search for purpose in the face of inevitable death. The speaker reflects on being killed not only in the grand narratives of life, as seen in the lines about being killed in tales and realities, but also in the subtler, more personal contexts of love and friendship.

As the poem progresses, the speaker's emotional journey unfolds, revealing a deep sense of vulnerability and awareness. The line "مرا یہ خون مرے دشمنوں کے سر ہوگا" indicates a recognition of the consequences of conflict, where one's sacrifice may serve a greater narrative, often at the expense of personal relationships. The juxtaposition of friends and enemies highlights the complexity of loyalty and betrayal, suggesting that even in companionship, one may find themselves in peril.

The tone shifts between resignation and defiance, particularly in the lines discussing silence and conscience. The speaker acknowledges the internal struggle of remaining silent, fearing the judgment of their own conscience, which could lead to a metaphorical death. This internal conflict is further emphasized by the reference to leisure as a symbol of death, suggesting that inactivity or complacency can be as lethal as physical violence.

Crafted as a ghazal, the poem employs a series of couplets that reflect the speaker's contemplative nature. The use of repetition in phrases like "مارا جاؤں گا" reinforces the inevitability of death, while the imagery of blood and conscience evokes a visceral reaction. Ultimately, Doshi's work resonates with the human experience of grappling with love, loss, and the search for meaning in a world fraught with uncertainty.

Word Dictionary71

WordIn UrduIn EnglishPron.
کہاںکہاںwherekahaan
کسیکسیanykisi
کیکیofki
حمایتحمایتsupporthimaayat
میںمیںinmein
ماراماراkilledmaara
جاؤںجاؤںI will gojaaoon
گاگاwillga
کمکمlesskam
شناسشناسknowledgeableshanaas
مروتمروتkindnessmurovat
پہلےپہلےfirstpehle
فسانےفسانےtalefasaane
پھرپھرthenphir
اساسthatus
کےکےofke
بعدبعدafterbaad
حقیقتحقیقتrealityhaqiqat
مجھےمجھےmemujhe
بتایابتایاtoldbataya
ہواہواhappenedhawa
ہےہےishai
مریمریmymeri
چھٹیچھٹیsixthchhati
حسحسsensehiss
نےنےhasne
اپنےاپنےmyapne
عہدِعہدِera ofahd-e
خلافتخلافتcaliphatekhilafat
مرامراmymera
یہیہthisye
خونخونbloodkhoon
مرےمرےmymere
دشمنوںدشمنوںenemiesdushmanon
سرسرheadsar
ہوگاہوگاwill behoga
دوستوںدوستوںfriendsdoston
حراستحراستcustodyhiraasat
یہاںیہاںhereyahaan
کمانکمانweaponkamaan
اٹھانااٹھاناto raiseuthaana
ضرورتضرورتnecessityzaroorat
وگرنہوگرنہotherwisewagarna
بھیبھیalsobhi
شرافتشرافتrespectsharaafat
چپچپsilentchup
رہارہاremainedraha
توتوthento
مارمارkillmaar
دےدےgivede
میرامیراmymera
ضمیرضمیرconsciencezameer
گواہیگواہیtestimonygawaahi
دیدیgavedi
عدالتعدالتcourtadaalat
فراغفراغleisurefaraagh
میرےمیرےmymere
لیےلیےforliye
موتموتdeathmaut
علامتعلامتsymbolalaamat
اپنیاپنیmyapni
پہلیپہلیfirstpehli
فراغتفراغتleisurefaraaghat
نہیںنہیںnonahi
مروںمروںI will diemaroon
جنگجنگwarjang
سوچسوچthoughtsoch
لیالیاtakenliya
ابابnowab
باربارtimebaar
محبتمحبتlovemohabbat

Poet & Context

EraContemporary

رانا سعید دوشی is a contemporary Urdu poet known for his poignant and reflective poetry that often explores themes of love, loss, and existential contemplation.

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WhenContemporary period, exact date unknown
WhyThe poem reflects the poet's introspection on mortality, identity, and the complexities of human relationships, possibly inspired by personal experiences or societal observations.
FormGhazal

Themes & More

mortalityloveexistentialismfriendshipbetrayal
repetition: the phrase 'مارا جاؤں گا' emphasizes the inevitability of deathimagery: vivid images of blood and conscience create emotional depthjuxtaposition: contrasts between friends and enemies highlight complex relationships
کہاں کسی کی حمایت میں مارا جاؤں گا by رانا سعید دوشی — Poem, Translation & Meaning