The Certainty in Holes

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Original Poetry
Translation
The Certainty in Holes
The Certainty in Holes
Doubting Thomas needed
Doubting Thomas needed
to stick his fingers
to put his fingers
into the holes in Jesushands
into the holes in Jesus’ hands
or side.
or side.
A character in Denis Johnson’s
A character in Denis Johnson’s
Steady Hands at Seattle General
“Steady Hands at Seattle General”
requests: “Talk into my bullet hole.
asks: “Speak into my bullet hole.
Tell me I’m fine.”
Tell me I’m okay.”
When your body
When your body
was lying in its coffin,
was in its coffin,
I could see the bullet hole
I saw the bullet hole
in your right temple.
in your right temple.
I did not look on the left
I didn’t check the left side
for the exit wound.
for the exit wound.
I did not need to
I didn’t need to
put my finger anywhere
put my finger anywhere
to remove any doubt
to confirm
you were my mother.
you were my mother.
There was no need
There was no need
to speak into
to speak into
your wound.
your wound.
It told me you were,
It showed me you were,
this time,
this time,
finally fine.
finally okay.
 

Explanation

This poem reflects on the human need for physical evidence to confirm reality, especially in moments of doubt and grief. It opens with a reference to 'Doubting Thomas,' a biblical figure who needed to touch Jesus' wounds to believe in his resurrection. This sets the stage for the poem's exploration of certainty through tangible proof.

The poem then shifts to a modern context, referencing a character from Denis Johnson’s work who asks for reassurance through a bullet hole, symbolizing a deep need for validation of one's state. This imagery of bullet holes serves as a metaphor for the wounds and scars that demand acknowledgment and understanding.

As the poem progresses, the speaker recounts a personal experience of seeing a bullet hole in their mother's temple as she lay in a coffin. The absence of the need to check for an exit wound signifies an acceptance of reality without further proof. The speaker's certainty of their mother's identity and condition is profound and final.

The emotional arc moves from a historical and literary context of doubt to a deeply personal acceptance of loss. The tone is somber yet resolute, capturing the inevitability of death and the finality of understanding.

The poem employs metaphor and imagery effectively, using the concept of holes to symbolize both physical and emotional voids. The references to biblical and literary figures enrich the text, providing layers of meaning about belief, evidence, and acceptance. Ultimately, the poem speaks to the universal human experience of seeking certainty in the face of life's ultimate uncertainties.

Word Dictionary7

WordIn EnglishPlain (English)Pron.
Doubtingquestioninghaving uncertainty or lack of beliefDoub-ting
Thomasa biblical figurea disciple known for his skepticismToh-mas
bulletprojectilea small metal object fired from a gunbul-let
coffinbox for buriala container for a dead bodykaw-fin
templeside of the headthe flat area on either side of the foreheadtem-pul
exit woundhole where bullet leavesthe opening where a bullet exits the bodyek-sit woond
woundinjurya break in the skin or body tissuewoond

Poet & Context

Poet
EraContemporary

The author of this poem is not identified. The poem reflects contemporary themes and references modern literature.


WhenContemporary period
WhyThe poem explores themes of doubt, certainty, and the human need for tangible evidence in the face of loss and grief.
FormFree verse

Themes & More

doubtcertaintygriefidentity
metaphor: bullet holes as symbols of doubt and certaintyimagery: vivid depiction of wounds and physical evidenceallusion: reference to Doubting Thomas and Denis Johnson's work
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