Lost. Lonely. Disappointed.

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Original Poetry
Translation
Lost. Lonely. Disappointed.
Lost. Lonely. Disappointed.
I expected to be great,
I expected to be great,
to step into a life that felt like mine,
to step into a life that felt like mine,
to hold good things in my hands,
to hold good things in my hands,
to earn respect not just for what I do,
to earn respect not just for what I do,
but for who I am.
but for who I am.
I want to shine.
I want to shine.
I want to be noticed.
I want to be noticed.
I want my story to matter.
I want my story to matter.
I want to be a great mother,
I want to be a great mother,
to nurture without losing myself.
to nurture without losing myself.
I want to get away
I want to get away—
from the whispers,
from the whispers,
from the judgement that sits heavy on my shoulders,
from the judgement that sits heavy on my shoulders,
from ridicule that cuts deeper than words.
from ridicule that cuts deeper than words.
But fear follows me.
But fear follows me.
Afraid to try, afraid to fail,
Afraid to try, afraid to fail,
and yet, my eyes remain on me,
and yet, my eyes remain on me,
searching for strength in the mirror,
searching for strength in the mirror,
watching hope slip like sand
watching hope slip like sand
through the cracks of age and experience.
through the cracks of age and experience.
Advice comes here and there,
Advice comes here and there,
but mostly empty words.
but mostly empty words.
Empty pockets, unmet needs,
Empty pockets, unmet needs,
and yet I rise.
and yet I rise.
Even when hope feels lost,
Even when hope feels lost,
I rise.
I rise.
I will rise for the me that wants to shine,
I will rise for the me that wants to shine,
for the mother I am yet to be,
for the mother I am yet to be,
for the dreams I refuse to let die.
for the dreams I refuse to let die.
Because I am more than my fears.
Because I am more than my fears.
I am more than their judgement.
I am more than their judgement.
And even when the world doesn’t notice,
And even when the world doesn’t notice,
I will notice me.
I will notice me.
 

Explanation

This poem captures the emotional journey of an individual grappling with feelings of inadequacy, societal judgment, and the fear of failure. It begins with a sense of disappointment and loneliness, as the speaker reflects on unmet expectations and the desire for recognition and respect. The poem transitions into a yearning for personal fulfillment and the struggle to maintain one's identity while nurturing others. The speaker expresses a desire to escape from societal pressures and the harshness of judgment, yet acknowledges the persistent presence of fear. Despite these challenges, the poem conveys a message of resilience and self-empowerment. The speaker resolves to rise above their fears and the judgments of others, emphasizing the importance of self-recognition and the refusal to let dreams die. The poem's free verse form allows for an intimate and candid exploration of these themes, resonating with anyone who has faced similar struggles. It ultimately conveys a powerful message of hope and the strength found in self-acceptance.

Word Dictionary10

WordIn EnglishPlain (English)Pron.
Lonelyfeeling alonefeeling isolated or without companionshiplohn-lee
Disappointedlet downfeeling sad or displeased because something was not as good as expecteddis-uh-point-id
Nurturecare forto support and encourage growth or developmentnur-chur
Judgementcriticismthe act of forming an opinion or evaluationjuj-muhnt
Ridiculemockerythe act of making fun of someone or somethingrid-i-kyool
Fearworryan unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harmfeer
Strengthpowerthe quality or state of being physically strongstrengkth
Hopeexpectationa feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happenhohp
Riseget upto move from a lower position to a higher onerahyz
Dreamsaspirationsa series of thoughts, images, or emotions occurring during sleep; a cherished aspirationdreemz

Poet & Context

Poet
EraContemporary

The poet of this piece is unknown. The poem reflects contemporary themes of self-discovery, resilience, and personal growth.


WhenContemporary period
WhyThe poem explores themes of self-doubt, societal pressure, and the journey towards self-acceptance and resilience. It reflects a common human experience of feeling lost and the desire to overcome personal and external challenges.
FormFree verse

Themes & More

self-discoveryresiliencefearjudgmenthope
Repetition: The poem uses repetition to emphasize feelings and desires, such as 'I want to shine.'Metaphor: 'watching hope slip like sand' compares hope to sand slipping away, illustrating its fleeting nature.Imagery: The poem creates vivid images of judgment and fear, such as 'judgement that sits heavy on my shoulders.'Personification: Fear is described as following the speaker, giving it human-like qualities.
Lost. Lonely. Disappointed. by Unknown poet — Poem, Translation & Meaning